Unwanted Desires ♥

It's been ages ;

2011-11-13T18:53:00.000+08:00

Wow. It's really been some time since i've last blogged. Time sure passes fast enough. It's already coming to the end of the year, and soon enough, i'll be leaving this school. Apparently it's gonna be my last paper tomorrow. Looking forward to it though. ;) I regretted not studying hard enough, and i'm kinda prepared to retake my papers again next year. This is what i deserve for playing too hard. But oh well, i only have myself to blame. I'm gonna strive harder next year though.

Been kinda troubled for quite awhile over people and all. But thinking back, what's the point? It's already the last year. Hopefully i'll leave this school with no regrets, other than my Olevel results. HAHA.

On a side note, i've really got lots of things to buy and do! For prom, outings and a lot of other stuff. Being a girl is some really tough shit okay, hahaha. And i'm really desperate to go bungee jumping and roller coaster rides.. I've really gotta start working. But the best part is, who would hire someone with no working experience? :/ Sighhhhh.

Okay time to sign off and go into my lil' thinking space. /starts sorting out thoughts/ Ciao! :)

If i had you ;

2011-08-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

Stayed home to rot again today. Well, went to Changi airport yesterday and stayed up the whole night there. Slept at 7am today and woke up at 7pm. TWELVE HOURS. Mad late.
O levels are seriously nearing, and i don't know even know how to start on my revision.... GOSH. And my maths.. whatever.

Deafening silence ;

2011-08-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

Done trying. Know what? I don't care anymore. Your choice.

2011-07-31T20:35:00.003+08:00

YOU ARE A FUCKED UP, MEAN, PATHETIC LIAR.
And i honestly mean it. Loser.

Crushed dreams ;

2011-07-31T03:58:00.000+08:00

"A girl, no matter how many times she denies it, she will always remember every detail, every moment, every piece of memory you left her. And, no matter how much she tries to erase it, it will always be there."
Memories make people hold on to something that they know, they should let go.
And holding on, kills them, inside.

I miss you.

The story of us ;

2011-07-30T05:35:00.006+08:00

Hmm.. It's been quite awhile since i last blogged. Been busy with all the shit. Mock exams and coursework. I guess this is the life of all Sec fours. Pretty annoying though.
So, this time while i was totally away from my blog.. Many things happened, as usual. I guess some things are just inevitable. Since it already happened, no matter how exasperating it is, or how much you wish to turn back time, i guess nothing happens. A wonderful person just walked out of my life, again. Been trying real hard to talk to you again. But most probably, you'll just walk off and leave me standing there all alone. Why do i still get hurt when you give me the cold shoulders? It's been so long and i still wonder if you'll ever visit my blog again. And hell, i've been going back to the past over and over again. And each, and every single time i think about this, i stay up the entire night. Why can't i just fucking snap out of it? I don't understand myself either. All i know is, i don't want to lose you again. This time, as a friend. I want to talk to you. But when will i have the courage? When will be as close as last time again? When will you let me confide in you again? I'm still afraid of losing you. Forget you? It'll probably take forever.

I'd tell you i miss you but i don't know how.

i've never heard silence quite this loud.

Munch and splash ;

2011-06-17T03:55:00.003+08:00

Had class outing today ~ Too bad th pictures aren't uploaded yet, shall post some of them when they are. :)
Was fun, had BBQ and water bombs. And oh, we played with a young kid's purple scooter. We went crazy while playing at th playground and see-saw, too. HAHAHA CHILDHOOD.
As for th BBQ, we couldn't start th fire at first.. But it still started, AFTER A FEW HOURS? HAHA. Although it wasn't that successful, it was still fun! :)

On a side note ;
Holidays are about to end and i didn't start on ANY HOMEWORK, or did ANY REVISION. Well done.

Cos when a heart breaks, no it don't break even.

A part of me ;

2011-06-16T03:15:00.001+08:00

Been out with Kerene today. Heeheee, had h2h talk, watched kungfu panda ate, and went to window shop ~ Was great. :) We went to look for th food court which had an open space like mad, and found that this food court changed so much. Sad, i used to have so much memories there during this new year countdown. But, oh well ~ And oh, th moon was extremely beautiful today. I heard it was th lunar eclipse or something ~

Anyway.. Holidays sucked and i rly wish it would be over soon, so that i can take my O's and graduate soon. Hell yeahhhh.

Was reading past messages again.. Memories surfaced, AGAIN. Another lonely night? I guess i'm getting used to this. Frustrated, sad, but all alone. And at this point of time, some people are rly shameless enough to come and annoy me. Get a life will you? Well, pissed off and sad at th same time. Feeling lost again i guess? Trying my best to push on and stay strong. But i rly don't know how long i can continue to push on, rly. How long can i stand this? This, tiring and extremely long journey. And i rly rly want to give up on everything. But there's just stupid things that are holding me back from doing what i like and pursuing what i want in MY LIFE. And honestly, why are these people stopping me, and MY LIFE? I'm super confused now. Rewind time? Fat hope.

True happiness?

Fading light ;

2011-06-12T17:13:00.000+08:00

Gradually, i'll get used to it. I must be strong.

Th same difference ;

2011-06-06T02:21:00.000+08:00

Just got back from Malaysia this morning at around 3am. Life there is pretty much more simple than being in Singapore. But Singapore food is definitely more awesome than th food there. And that's all i miss in Singapore - food. I just wished i don't have to come back and face everything, again. And this time, more shit comes in my way. I just don't get why you have to do this to me. You love me? You sure you do? You're killing me inside, you know how much it hurts? How many promises? How many lies? And now, you just betrayed me. You killed th trust we had. And for what? Why do you have to do this to me? Just to ruin me, or to destroy me? I trusted you. In fact, i trusted everyone. All of you, i loved all of you. I cared. But do you guys give a fucking damn about it? For some of you, i was there by you when you needed me, but left when you got someone new. For another group of you, i was there for you when no one stood by you, but didn't you leave me too when you've gotten your new friends? And for some people whom i rly treasure, you just threw your temper at me as and when you like it, just because i'm giving in to you once again. Some of you even acted like a slut and STARED AT ME FOR NO FUCKING REASON. Fucking mad. I just want to ask you, what the fuck did i do to deserve this from you? For all these people, thanks. You rly made me hurt. You guys made me gave up on everything including myself. Your lies, your backstabbing, your criticism. Yes, you guys said i left you all for him behind my back. Didn't i try to change? Didn't i? If you guys were my true friends, you would have accepted me again. You didn't. No one did. All you guys wanted was to leave me all alone.. All alone. It's exhausting but i carried on, i pushed on. And this is th last straw, i broke down. I give up. I give up on you guys, i give up on him, i give up on myself. I rly, give up.

My existence, it was insignificant from th very start.

Wishing stars ;

2011-05-19T03:36:00.002+08:00

I wanna live here. HAHA.

Hello peeps! OMG I AM SO BORED RIGHT NOW. So why am i not sleeping at this time? No idea.Wanted to do coursework, but ended up watching Justin's videos. HAHA. K my fault.
Kay, i got back my papers yesterday. Failed Chem, failed Maths, failed SS. And my Chinese dropped to a C5. Alright, i know i ought to be slapped. I did not revise for any paper and i'm complaining. AND i'm worried about my results like.. only now?! Right. Renae mayuki is mad.

Next week there's INTENSIVE MOTHER TONGUE LESSONS. I must rly work hard alr man.
And holidays?! There's science study camp for th first week. And i've got some super important, cannot-be-missed wedding dinner at Malaysia to attend and i'm gonna miss my science study camp?! Noooo ~ So dead.

Hmm, such a short post. But i'm extremely lazy to continue to type alr, so i shall shut off th comp now ~ And it's like SO LATE ALR. Plus, i wouldn't want to have panda eyes tomorrow ~ So goodnight to anyone that's awake right now. Goodnight, you.
On a side note ; I'm craving for Koi now. Insane or what?

Wish for simplicity.

Time flies ;

2011-05-08T13:30:00.006+08:00

So.. It's been quite awhile since i've last blogged. So many things happened. And i'm proud to say our dance got a silver, and it's th first silver. :) HAHA. Time flies eh, so fast and it's... MAY.

Next up, been busy with MYEs. I did last minute revision, and i'm sure i'm gonna flung it because i don't even bother studying for my papers now. HAHA. I wonder how am i gonna do well in Os if i still don't wanna work hard and push myself. -sighs-
But anyway...
JB's CD is coming out on like... 13MAY. OMG -smiles like a fool-

To: You.
Kay... So, it's been a year since that date.
I don't think you'll remember. I don't think you'll even know it's.. today.
Well, many things happened this year and i'm glad it's finally over.
Though, you didn't tell me why you left...
This little part of me is gonna let you go.
I don't hang on to you as much anymore, that's for sure.
I'm sure you moved on, to be a happier person. I'm happy for you. :)
Although, i've heard things that you said about me, but i forgive you.
I'm sorry for everything in th past, i know it's my fault.
I should have hanged on, but i believe that would cause you unhappiness.
Now we've gone our own ways, but i'm glad we're still friends.
And also, i thank you.
I thank you for th tears you've wasted on me.
I thank you for your unconditional love.
I thank you for making me grow up.
I thank you for being my first.
I thank you for making me become a strong girl.
I thank you, for making me learn not to take things for granted.
I thank you for all th memories that i'm gonna lock up in my heart, and keep them there forever, not taking them out anymore.
You'll be someone that i'll remember and miss for life. But it's time i learn to let go and move on, because time stops for no man.

And lastly, i hope that girl, will finally understand how much you've done for her. She will, one day.
I wish you happiness.

I know, you'll never visit my blog as often as in th past anymore, so most probably you won't get to see this.

-We move on, only when our heart truly understands.

It's time to let go.

2011-04-10T17:11:00.001+08:00

DAMN PISSED NOW. Let me tell you something okay?! Your fucking attitude sucks! AYE PLEASE LAH, NO ONE OWES YOU A LIVING LAH. CCB. You think we're born to let you throw your fucking temper and attitude at? And damn pro uh, still can say until like you got no faults. OMG GET A LIFE. GO AND DIE IN A HOLE. So that no one can see your fucked up face.

Monstrous and vicious ;

2011-03-21T22:07:00.003+08:00

Again, i've neglected this empty space of mine. HAHA. Nothing much to blog about. Shall talk about th holidays? Holidays. Out of this one week, i've been busy for 5 days. That's 'a lot' huh. Ccas and supplementary lessons. I'm so busy. Well, i only done my Chemistry and Poa homework. Th rest? UNCOMPLETED. Assignments, i swear you are soooo bloody annoying.
But th dance exchange was rly somewhat memorable? Hahaha. That's th day which i rly enjoyed during th holidays. :) During th holidays i lost something which meant so much to me during danceeeee. UGH. My necklace!! ): Looked for it like three hours under th bloody rain and guess what?! I found nothing but caught a flu instead. (SORE THROAT AND COUGH AS WELL.) Damn.
After school reopened, it wasn't any better? Timetable became more packedddd. Projects after projects. Dance practices almost everyday and even weekends. But do we have a choice? SYF's coming real real soon. LIKE NEXT WEEK?!?! 29March. Have to start to work rly hard? We have to do EVERYONE prouddddd. Work hard, worked hard and working even harder.
There's a disaster in Japan happening. I'm so glad my grandparents and father are fine. Amen, seriously. Hope things will get better for them and may god bless the people!
So many commotions going on. And i'm getting rly exhausted and tired. I have no idea what to do next. And i'm totally LOST. But Renae Mayuki is gonna remain strong. STRONG.
Alright, i suppose that's all? Goodnight all. :)

Will we ever meet again, stranger?

Hesitation ;

2011-03-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

Went to ECP with Sihui, Randy and Dianwei today! Been a long time since i last been there. HAHAHAHA. I picked shells and found a starfish! For like th first time in my life, i saw a real starfish! So cooooool. ^^
Wanted to ride bikes at first but in th end, we didn't. :/ No time ~
Went to Simei to shop and eatttt. Yay ^^v

So.. It's finally th holidays. I'm gonna have to work hard in term two! :/ My results sucked. Apparently, i failed three important subjects. DAMN IT. English, math and science. How great! For th first time in my life i failed English. LIKE SERIOUSLY. And for th first time in my life, i failed three subjects. Good luck to me.

I don't need people like you in my life.

Love story ;

2011-03-06T04:51:00.001+08:00

Hello there! Haven't been updating my blog as frequently as i did. So well.. Here's my update! :)

They are such cute creatures aren't they?!

And i kinda like this character! ^^ BENNY.

Here's th trailer! So..
Went to watch Gnomeo and Juliet with Dianwei, Sihui and Randy today! It's pretty funny! Super cute. Like extremely! It's about this two gnomes, which are from different gardens and their families were enemies. Even th owners of th gardens were enemies. But they fell in love. Like th usual, romeo and juliet story ; just that they are wayyyyyy much cuter and they have a happy ending! It's a nice show. You guys should watch it. :)
Took away my dinner, and cabbed home with Dianwei. :) Went home and i left my dinner on th table, went to use th comp and totally forgot about it lah. LIKE WHATTHEHELL. Anyway, someone reminded me and i was like -.-.
After doing my stuff, talked on th phone with this silly person, and now blogging, ready to go to bed alr. Shall go wash up soon. :)
Waking up early tomorrow. Heehee.

Our promise.

Speechless ;

2011-02-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

Bitches. Everywhere.
So good at backstabbing huh? Need me clap?
So smart ah, know how to change stories.
Annoying lah. Tell you what. Just dig a hole and die in there. Ass.

I wonder why did i even made this choice to come to where i am now.

What is better than food?

2011-02-13T01:58:00.004+08:00

Meat!

Egg noodles. :)

Charred! :/

Ice cream ready to be 'cooked'!

Yuck.

Thanks ah, ALEXGOH AND TIMCHAN.

Short girls!

Okay, went out with Alex, Dra, Tim and Sihui to Marina Square today. :) Had Suki-Yaki for dinner. Naiseeee! But Sihui left halfway. Th Suki-Yaki was awesome?! Especially, th DIY ice-cream! We get to make the mixture into ice-cream ourselves! Cool much. Alex and Tim made a big mess. We wasted lots of food. But didn't have to pay for th wastage because we ran away. Bad kids. Haha.
Tim went off, then we went shopping - for Alex's stuff. Sihui came back to meet us after that and then off to Esplanade. Took pictures. And guess what, we were so lucky, rly lucky! We saw fireworks! Super happy.
We went off around nine plus. Sihui and i went to to find Randy, Dianwei, Jiahao and Eden at J8, and homed. :)

I want to shoot you dead.

Back to December ;

2011-02-10T03:12:00.001+08:00

Went out to get Eden's Birthday present today. Uh-huh, basketball shoes. Paid one eighth of it.
I'm supposed to do my coursework like now. But, Blogger is rly distracting. HAHAHA. Okay, so i stared at my coursework for like the past 10-20 minutes before i 'officially' started. And now i'm blogging. How great.

Confused.

Red red packets ;

2011-02-05T02:22:00.000+08:00

Went to shop again at Far East, and Bugis with Bryan and Dianwei today.
But guess what, NO SHOPS OPEN. Okay, maybe 5 percent was. Luckily cotton-on was open though. :D Awesome!
Went over to meet Sihui and Randy at Braddell. Went to Randy's house first, then Yicheng's. :)
Had fun playing blackjack. :D I suppose i lost around four dollars? But ohh well ~ At least i had funnnnn! HAHA.
Will be going over to Yuwen's and Sihui's place tomorrow. AWESOME. Most probably having steamboat at Sihui's place. Yay! :)

I'm rly very happy now. ;)

Solitude ;

2011-02-04T03:15:00.003+08:00

Kay, feel like an idiot now. Was so happy for th past few days. And now? Okay whatever. Honestly, i just need a place to rant.
Why is everything so complicated? So messy? So complex? So tough? Why can't things be simpler? More pure? More straightforward? More unsophisticated? And not complex? Really. I'm exhausted. Yes, obstacles are supposed to keep me going. But it's way too much. So messed up inside. And I'm dying to escape. Escape from th scary reality. I'm dying to runaway, to a place where no one is inferior. No one judges you. No one criticizes you. No one to hurt me, or anyone, at all.
If only i was a stronger person, a tough nut to crack. Someone who isn't so fragile, so weak. Then wouldn't i be a happier girl? To be honest? I'm dying TO BE SOMEONE ELSE. Anyone, except myself.
Fear. What's worse than fear? Th fear of getting hurt again. Th fear of being forgotten. Th fear of lies. Th fear of trusting anyone again. Th fear of practically everything. It's just so scary. I'm starting to doubt everyone, anyone. Anyone, and that includes my FAMILY. But why? I don't wanna lose myself.
Expectations, change - They never, and i mean, NEVER ever, fail to make my heart sink. All i want, is to feel loved. Not to be lied to, not to be forgotten, not to be JUDGED. Is it such an impossible task?
People come and go. BUT WHY? If you wanna leave right from th start, why th hell did you enter my life in th first place? To lengthen th pain and torture? I'm long lost, right? Forgotten too, right? YOU are too busy to be bothered about me. Am i not right? Busy working all th time, busy doing your own stuff. Way too busy to be bothered about me ehh? If only i didn't had feelings, then i won't hurt so much now right? I wouldn't even care, bother. Let alone to get fucking hurt?
I feel so inferior to everybody, anybody. Lonely? That's th only word that i can use to describe how i'm feeling right now. Stupid - that's definitely th word to describe, ME.
Think there's no point because those people won't be reading this anyway. So i should just shut th hell up.
Whatever it is, i swear i'm gonna be stronger someday.

I feel that i may fall off from this height, any moment.

Happy Chinese New Year! :D

2011-02-03T02:20:00.003+08:00

Finally! It's Chinese New Year! (Since it's past twelve) Well, not gonna have much this year. But hope i'll enjoy th holidays given to me. :D It's a bit sad that i didn't go Bai-nian this year though. ): However, i'll be going to my friend's houses to eat and celebrate together! Which is like, kinda awesome!
Yesterday went for last minute shopping at Bugis with Dw. Walao, i don't know what to buy! Just anyhow anyhow only! Since like not much clothes are left. :/ Damn it. HAHAHA. But at least i got some new clothes. :D Then Randy came over to find us and we went to Yicheng's house together to meet th rest and had vegetarian steamboat and wineeeee! :D Then some of us left early and some stayed. I just reached home like an hour ago.
Hope this Bunny year will be a good one!And may everyone have a blissful and prosperous year ahead! :D
Should i Shou sui?!

Please tell me you won't fall for anyone else, will you?

It's been quite a while ;

2011-02-01T17:29:00.002+08:00

Hello everybody! I'm back to blog! I don't know why i'm just so lazy in doing anything. Damn lazy to do anything already! Like seriously. I didn't even go to school today! :/
Haha, so fast and it's already Feb! Hope this month's better because Valentine's Day is in this month! Might be a lonely month for me though! Whatever it is, i hope it's gonna be a lovely month! I'm still in th holiday mood. Which is like.. NOT GOOD. It's time to get serious in work.
Chinese new year is pretty near too! But i won't be going to visit relatives this year. Sian! Will be going friend's houses to celebrate this occasion though. STEAMBOAT FTW AHAHAHAHA. Yay. :D Awaiting a better month! :) Shall go bathe now. Bye readers. :D

Will you be my Valentine this year?

Time after time ;

2011-01-27T21:04:00.003+08:00

No point. k bye.

2011-01-24T21:32:00.000+08:00

I just wanna say that...
I have a reason for every single thing i do, so don't judge me just like that, IF YOU DON'T KNOW TH REASON. And, i hope i am NOT your toy..
And ohh, th motivation camp today is SOOOOO BORING. So NOT looking forward to tomorrow. K bye.

Gone with th wind ;

2011-01-23T07:17:00.001+08:00

Stayed at home for th whole of today! Like a sian ah, but still okay. Slept alot! :) Need to chiong homework tomorrow already. Especially Math - HATE IT. Tsktsk, i wanna go out! But no idea where to go also. This is a really super super boring and sucky year! Tsk.
Currently unable to sleep. :/ And reading th past on Facebook! (Wasted hours just scrolling back to th start of last year. -.-) I viewed all th way to 2 January 10 sia. Realised how much i've changed, AND I WAS ACTUALLY LIKE THAT IN TH PAST? And how many left, and stayed.. But.. Whatever. Life's good. :D
I AM SUPER HUNGRY NOW. REALLY. Nothing to eat somemore. ): AND MY MOTHER IS DAMN ANNOYING. I SWEAR. Sad life. HAHA!
I am craving for Udders! N-O-W. My honeycomb ~ Ahhhhh.
All of th sudden, out of nowhere at all, i'm missing someone ahh. :/ Damn. Must be th old posts. Tsk. Made me reminisce. It's like so late already. And i need to wake up at eight later! :/ Shall stop thinking and go to bed real soon! :)
Goodnight all! :D

Bet you forgot about me, when i actually missed you.

Just a dream ;

2011-01-22T00:06:00.005+08:00

So... I don't know what to update but some idiot say he wanted to read. But don't know whether real or not lahh. HAHAHA.

Okay, so... I DIDN'T SLEEP LAST NIGHT. Was rushing to finish my poa homework. Ugh ~ :/ Then ended up only sleeping about for an hour or so? Then went to school. Bio was fun today! :) New topic - Nervous System. Hehehe ~
Had CCA after school. Damn tired. Met Sihui after that, then went over to Braddell to buy lunch, and to Yicheng's house. :) Okay, ended up being pretty awkward due to some reasons.. :/ Sigh.
They were really noisy! Haha, was really sleepy so i rushed home for my nap. But who knows, after reaching home, i didn't felt like sleeping anymore! I'm really tired now though. D: So much homework, i really don't know how to cope!

Wondering if i should go tomorrow ~ I really don't know what i want from myself. But, ohh well! :)

Anyway....
Happy Birthday Clint Low! :D Stay happy and horny forever. HAHA!
Okay bye readers! :)

Heart, choose your path.

Enchanted ;

2011-01-19T23:43:00.005+08:00

Hello all! :) I didn't go to school for th past two days. Hmm, guess was really not in th mood huh? Especially when that text came in th morning.. But well, it's all over and i'm still smiling. :)

And and, Happy Birthday to Tan Jinkai! :D

Not really feeling so good now, but yeah whatever. I still got work to complete! D: Ass. I didn't do any work for these past two days.Can you believe it? Ugh.
I guess i'll just complete English later on. I'll leave th rest to tomorrow i guess. Chiong die me! HA.
Currently listening to some very very awesome English songs! :)
Wondering if i should sleep tonight?
On a side note, i really miss those seven people.. and th time we used to spend together. ♥
Guess time can't rewind too, so might as well just move on and expect nothing anymore.
Kay, off to Facebook, Tweet, Youtube and to do homework already! Goodnight everyone ~ :D

I hope i never will turn back again.

A year has passed ;

2011-01-15T03:59:00.009+08:00

So, a year has passed. And i've been neglecting this little space of mine! Changed th blogskin though. Awesome much! :D Click th title for th Archives alright? They are hidden. :) Shall update like now! So here goes th first post of this year. A brand new start. :D It's gonna be pretty long i guess.

Kay, new year countdown was somewhat awesome? Only th fireworks and Hotpot? xD 30 dollars! Expensive. Tsk. But i can't deny th fact that it's super delicious. Heehee.
So, since school reopened, i've been very very very busy! Common tests, preparing for SYF and all :/ OMGGGG. It's totally crazy. And up to three tests per day? Insane. But anyway, i'm prepared to fail everything because i couldn't finish revising them in time. Ended up sleeping instead of revising most of th time. Hopefully i'll pass one to two subjects, AT LEAST.

Hmm, next up!
Resolutions? Well, 2010 was a very very hectic year for me! :/ I wonder how i survived. In a blink of an eye, a year passed just like that. How time flies. Was looking at my previous posts. VERY JOKE. I was so childish in th past. HAHA. So yupp. :)

For this year, i want to really study hard. And when i mean study, I MEAN STUDY. Don't doubt me. HAHA. (I'm doubting myself already.) Hopefully, i'll be more motivated this year.

Hmm, next up. I want to do my best in Dance Club. It's my last year already! But honestly, i don't know why i really don't feel like dancing this year.. Try my best though. Still wondering if i can handle th stress for SYF.

Thirdly, i want to make people around me HAPPY. :D I want my family and friends (and even enemies) to be in th best of health, and stay cheerful and happy. SMILE. Because it's free! :)

Lastly, i want myself to be a happier and better person this year. Lesser tears, more smiles! :) I want to start making decisions on my own.

And, from this year onwards, i want to live life for myself and not for others anymore.

I guess that's all. :)
Bye everyone!

Last christmas ;

2010-12-25T16:55:00.002+08:00

Pretty lights , isn't it ?
Okay , so it's Christmas already ! Merry Christmas all ! :) Damn , how fast time flies ! Hehehe . At th same time , say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER AND RANDY LEE ! How fortunate to be born on Christmas lahh ! *Jealous* Hehehe . Well , i had quite an enjoyable Christmas because i got to spend it with my friends !
So , Sihui , Randy , Jiasheng , Dangkhoa , Eden and i met at J8 to buy Randy's present - tights . Then went to meet Dianwei at interchange . Off to Esplanade to return Dianwei's uniform and waited for Junjie and Kevin . Then went to Orchard to countdown - met with Branick and Jiawu . ^^ So many people spraying th foam thingy ! How i wish Singapore had snow . ): And super , squeezy . :/ Some went home . th rest went back to Bishan , to play monopoly cards till dawn ! ): Super tired leyy . Home at about 6 . GAHHHH. HAHAHA .Should be goung out again later . :)
I made a wish . But i got th answer today . A bit sad lah , but.. Whatever .

P/s : Renae mayuki , SMILE . It's Christmas .

Painted smile ;

2010-12-22T03:57:00.002+08:00

Went out today with Sihui's to th doctor's . :) DAMN LONG SIA . Stupid clinic . HAHAHA . xD Hope she's feeling better already ! Met with th usuals and off to eat , play and all . Hehehe .

Painted smiles . We usually fake smiles to not affect people around us don't we ? But as long as they smile , somehow you'll find all these worthwhile . :) I'm happy to see you smiling . Hehehe .
I wonder what's my place in your heart . Or do i even have one ? Will you ask yourself and tell me ? Hehehe . Crazy .

Jiahao's sweet 16 birthday tomorrow . STEAMBOAT . Yay ^^
On a side note , WHY TH HELL IS MY HAMSTER BECOMING SOOOO FAT ?! Ahahaha , he's got a good owner ^^ Okay , it's time to end this , bye all . :)

P/s : I wonder how much i mean to you .

Greatest fall ;

2010-12-21T02:56:00.005+08:00

Fell hard today . My heart sank . So it's fake . Damn ..
And having super mixed feelings now . Oh my god .
Nevermind. Will pei Sihui to Doctor's tomorrow morning . And then , to match . Nights all . :)

Note to self : I should be sure of my feelings.

Basketball ! :)

2010-12-20T00:57:00.001+08:00

So, i woke up 7 in th morning . For th match . :) Damnnnn sleepy sia . Hehehe .
Went to Mac with Dianwei , Sihui , Randy , Jiasheng , Eden , Jiawu and Choon Hong after th match .
Played Monopoly ~~
Went to Shelter to play basketball. HAHAHA , yayyyyy ~
Then off to Sihui's house . Stupid sick guys ! Keep anyhow xD
They went for match and me and Sihui took a nap . :)
Met them for dinner and homed ~

P/s : Hohoho , you're awesome !

Courage ;

2010-12-17T00:59:00.004+08:00

Out to Bugis with Shiyen today ! Spent like 50 plus ?! -.-
Then went to orchard to meet Sihui , Randy , Dianwei , Eden and Jiahao . Walked around Ion and Cine . Got a bit feverish huh -.-
Then reached home by 11 plus ! Hehehe . Most probably watching match tomorrow . Yayyyy .
HAHAHA was sad at first today . But happy like crazy now ! :)
Though i'm waiting for something that never comes , at least i have th courage to wait and finally do something i really want ! Thank you courage ! K byebye ! :D
(As promised , no emoooo posts ! HAHA.)

P/s : I will ;

Is it even worth ;

2010-12-15T20:28:00.012+08:00

AHAHAHA . This guy above made me smile when i was at my lowest . :)
Ha , so i'm finally back to my usual blogging mood . Tell you a secret , i stayed home for four straight days right after that bad thing happened ! And it totally sucks . Totally .
Kay , so i'm staying home again today and i didn't go out . Afraid to face people , perhaps .
Other sides of people totally freak me out . Disgust me much .
If only i knew who to make friends with from th start . True ones .
I thought i still had some of you guys , guess i was wrong ? Very .
As usual , music and songs accompanied me throughout these days . Thank you .
Tomorrow , it's cancelled . I'm afraid to see you yet i want to go .
Shit that ?
I didn't even look at my homework , not to mention to do them .
NO MOTIVATION . HA .
Okay , no more emo posts after this . Byebye .
Anyway thank you very much , Wil Cheng , HAHA .

P/s : Guess it's gonna be harder .

Your laughter ;

2010-12-12T20:25:00.002+08:00

So i guess , it ends here . It's final .
How stupid was i to actually believe , you're th one for me .
You are , but maybe i'm not th one for you .
Whatever it is , i shouldn't even believe that actually , we COULD .
When actually , we COULDN'T .
It wasn't supposed to hurt that much ;
I thought i was strong enough , to accept it .
But maybe i wasn't that strong after all .
I don't blame you ,
It's my fault , totally mine .
I was th willing party .
I'm sorry i made that choice in th past ,
And i'm really sorry .
I chose to believe everything , when i had a choice to not believe you .
But thanks for telling a white lie , just to make me feel better .
I'm sorry , again .
I don't know how to feel ,
but i can tell you , i really miss you a lot right now .
There's so many more things i want to tell you and do for you ,
But maybe fate didn't give me that chance .
Please smile , laugh more than ever . :)
Don't you feel bad , i'm fine .
I doubt you'll read this , but ;
Thanks for all these while ,
Thanks for making me smile ,
Thanks for everything you've done for me .
Thanks , for letting me meet and know such a wonderful person . ♥

And ohh , my Hamster DD turned one month , five weeks and a day , today . :) And i'm he's owner for one month and a day already . How time flies .

P/s : If only every love story doesn't have an ending .

A big joke ;

2010-12-10T22:36:00.005+08:00

Watched match today , went to Nex . Damn big , but super disorganized .

It's just so scary how people are , and how fake they can get .
I guess , it's really all fake .
Just fuck everything .

Should i just open a new blog and erase my past ?

P/s : I guess , even you are fake .

Promises ;

2010-12-08T02:00:00.003+08:00

It's th 8th already , since it has passed twelve . HAHA . It's been quite a long while since that date .
Time flies so fast this year , and i really wonder why ! Because i'm not th only one that feels this way .
Hmm ~
Well , went out for movie today at Cine . With Randy , Sihui , Eden , Dianwei and Jiahao . Watched Rapunzel . It's so awesome i tell you ! :D Don't know why th guys claimed that they didn't really like it when they were laughing so loudly ! HAHA . It's damn cute ~ Must watch !
Tomorrow will be going out with Changi Family . Hopefully , we will succeed in scaring Dianwei , HAHA . Hopefully ~
Christmas , MY FAVOURTE TIME OF EVERY SINGLE YEAR IS COMING ! I don't know why , but i just love this day filled with so much warmth every single year ! I just hope my wish this year will come true .
Anyway , cut th crap . I must finish what i have to do by maybe 4 am ! So i should be going now , so tata world . :)

♥ If only i was a little more significant .

Just smile ;

2010-12-05T19:22:00.003+08:00

Currently rotting at home , thinking of stuffs . And i'm so hungry ~ :/ GAHHHH . Food , food , food . I'm just too lazy to go down and get food for myself . Tsk . HAHA . I don't know what to say . Just so many things running through my mind right now . But definitely , i'm feeling a lot better than yesterday . :) I'm most probably going over to my grandma's place for dinner tonight . I miss her dishes , HAHA . Goodbye bloggy . :)

♥ Happy for you then ;

Mixed feelings ;

2010-12-05T03:17:00.004+08:00

Today was pretty awesome . Went to Gysb's passing out parade . :) Was awesome ~ Changed some rank thingy for Sihui ! Heeheehee . Nice ahh , our school band's marching damn synchronized . I LIKE :D Hahaha , damn nice lahh . Serious . Then after that went to get refreshments . :) Dianwei they all like some sua ku or what siah . KEEP TAKING . Damn kiasu ! Super embarassing :/ HAHAHA . Then we got ice cream also , thanks to Gysb's conductor and Viandra . :)
Went to Sihui's house after that with Eden , Randy and Dianwei . Some things happened , make me damn pissed , but i was fine after awhile . Took mrt to Dhoby's 'Just Acia' after that , for dinner . HAHA , damn nice . Got free flow ice cream , YAY . ^^ Then went arcade awhile after that , slacked , homed . :)

Today wasn't that bad . I'm sure things are getting better already . I juat have to continue having faith and be contented with what i already have . I realised some people aren't that bad after all , in fact they're super nice ! That's why we shouldn't judge someone by they're first impression .
I'm having some mixed feelings now :/ It can't be described . It's like , i don't know how to feel . Yupp , that's exactly what i'm feeling now , a feeling whereby you don't know how or what to feel . Weird . :/ Sigh .

♥ I really didn't want you to do that :/

Take flight ;

2010-12-04T00:02:00.002+08:00

Was supposed to go Sentosa today , but cancelled due to some reasons . Went out with Shiyen to Bugis and Tampines . :) Talked and crapped . HAHA . Met Sihui and th others after Shiyen went home . Went to TPC ~ And again th night market ~ HAHA . Then my mood really very sian lahh , don't know why .
What's wrong with th world nowadays ? :/ It's getting way too crazy for me to handle . I think i'm not gonna bother anymore . Renae will smile . :) Hopefully .

Thanks for th present , though i heard bad things about it . I'll treasure it .
Being taken for granted doesn't feel good at all . But i guess i'm willing to let you do that .
Guess you won't know it anyway .
That's all for today folks , goodnight . :)

♥ Maybe things will get better .

Unbearable ;

2010-12-02T04:20:00.004+08:00

Been to Marsiling today . :) Went to Singapore American School to watch Guangyang basketball team vs th SAS peeps . Super huge , look like th school they used in High School Musical , HAHA . Lots of Caucasians . Many pretty ladies , few hot guys though , HAHA . But there's one that looked a bit like JB ! Cute much . :)
Our school lost to them by 1 or 2 points in th last few minutes , not bad alr . HAHA !
Went to TPC's Mos burger . Ate with Sihui and Shiyen . Th rest went Koufu . Jiahao came after that and Sihui went to find her mom after eating. Went to th night market with th rest :) Ate smelly Tofu . Stinks , but quite nice lahh , HAHA . And ate other stuff too .
Th others had things to do , so walked to bus stop with Dianwei , Randy and Shiyen . Bused home .
Not a very good day , but not really a bad day . :/

Sometimes , we tend to have th temptation to keep looking back at th past . Keep refreshing th past . But when will i ever understand ? No matter how many times i refresh it in my mind , it's never gonna come back , ever . No matter how sweet it was , how happy it has once been , it's already gone . Looked at all th older posts i had in th past on Facebook today . Stupid .

♥ Never look back ; ever .

That's th common lie ;

2010-11-30T01:19:00.004+08:00

Haha , out to do manicure and pedicure with Sihui and Vanessa at Dhoby today . (: Hot pink for fingers , neon orange for toes ! Bright right ? Ha . Went to meet Randy , Branick and Jiahao . Then walked around and back to Toa Payoh . Found out someth on th way . Disgusting much . Anyway , went to Pasar malam :) A lot food , Yummy ~ Hehehehehe ! Then bused home .

I feel so disgusted right now . So i was a toy once ? Lol . Face th mirror , look at yourself please . Look at your own face , then see whether you even have that type of face to treat others as toys ? To think you have a face of innocence . YOU DISGUST ME MUCH . Ass . I was blind to know you . Spoilt my whole day . Go ahead , tell them all you want . You just wait , karma will befall you .

♥ Luckily , i still have you .

Dead beat ;

2010-11-27T21:10:00.011+08:00

Haha , woke up like few hours ago . Damn tired . Went over to Jiahao's house to ton with Sihui , Randy , Weijian , Oliver , Kokwei and Branick . :)
Stayed home today , so nothing to say , HAHA .
Talking about yesterday will make this most more alive . HAHA .

So , went out with Sihui and her mommy to Bugis ! :) Shopped alot man ~ We had a hard hard time looking for neon coloured clothing . Didn't find any . Haha , we also extended our hair for like 5 strands only , cui much :/ HAHAHA . But we're gonna re-do it or someth some other days :) Together with my Manicure and her Pedicure ~ Yay . Haha .
Went over to Casey's birthday party after that !
Happy Birthday to my beloved Twinneh ! ♥
Stay happy and pretty always ! Love you many many ~ :)
Didn't do much , ate and chatted with th rest . :) Went over to Ehub . Th usuals did th usual borrowing . HAHA . :/ Went back to Chalet , Kokwei and Weijian played games and Kokwei got drunk ! Funny much . xD He even talked about Santa's lollipop . HAHAHA .
Went to Jiahao's house . Then watch tv until morning ~ HAHA . Then slept for awhile , ate and went home :) Slept till six plus nearly seven .

Chatted with Shiyen :) And this is for you dear !
Cheer up okay ? Remember what i told you ? We'll always gladly hold your hand and help you stand up whenever life knocks you down . But , you're th only one that can make yourself walk and move forward . I'm sure you can do it , with me and many others who love you . :) Remember whatever i told you in th text k ! We're always here , 24/7 . :)
Goodluck baby . Love you many many ! ♥

♥ I'm missing you so much .

Beat of my heart ;

2010-11-24T23:18:00.001+08:00

Went out with Dianwei and th others today to Marina Square . :) Because he's leaving tomorrow to Thailand ~ Have a safe journey and take care ! HAHA . We'll miss you ~
Played some stupid Truth or Dare game . Damn stupid . HAHAHA .

Sometimes , i really wish i was prettier :/ Feel so ugly right now . HAHA . Random much .

♥ Candy man , candy man .

Tolerance ;

2010-11-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

Why doesn't he appreciate th things i do and instead do this to me ? :/
Should i just stop everyth that i'm doing for him ? Somebody guide me please ?
I must not be afraid ; i must think carefully before i make a decision .
I know it's not gonna be easy , let's just pray that it's worth it .
Renae Mayuki Yamada , stay strong . S T A Y S T R O N G .

Our spirit ;

2010-11-19T01:11:00.009+08:00

Just got home from a long day , heheheh ! Super tired . But i'm gonna blog about beloved 3E4 and th chalet ! :)


Featuring our big star ; GOH CHANG RONG ! :)


And my pic with him !


Beloved photographers !! :)

Sisters ;

And brothers ;

Awesome gay team ! :)

Mr praying mantis !


Lastly ; our two cute organisers who made this chalet possible ! :)

And yes , this is my cute class , 3E4 !! ♥

Yes , th above is my cute and beloved class , 3E4 . :) Th class that's so fun and bonded , and i swear i'll never forget anyone of them . THEY ARE TH CUTEST CLASS , EVER . Heehee ! Yeahh , we may split , go separate ways , but we know , in our heart , we always stand together as one . WE'LL BE BONDED FOR LIFE ! :)
So let's talk about our chalet ;

Day 1

Checked in , and barbecued . :) Then th guys played cards and all . Ghost story time ~ (Many spoilers ! xD) Then some of us went to rent bikes overnight ! :) Couple bike . So yeahh , i was th slack one xD Then went back to chalet , rest and yessss , CAMWHORED . Pictures are up on facebook ! Too much to upload . And and , featuring our big star , GOH CHANG RONG . Handsome gold monkey :) Then we went to explore some weird dark places in Pasir Ris Park as a class . :/ But only some went in . Scary ttm ! I walked halfway and felt damn uneasy . Then almost all backed out , leaving our 4 heros , HAHA . Earnest , Xunqin , Weichuen and Sewa ! They said they heard sounds when they were back . :/ Better not to know so much huh ! HAHA . And showered , some went supper , some slept , some stayed and talked with th rest . Then off to bed :)

Day 2

Some went off already ): Went to eat , then back to chalet to return bikes , some slept . After returning bikes , go back chalet to sleeeeeeppppp ! Damn tired :/ HAHAHA . Then packed all th clothes for wild wild wet . All ready and prepared . AND GUESS WHAT . It's closed . -.- HAHAHAHA WTF . Damn xia suay ~ No wonder everybody was looking at us . Tsktsk . xD Then okay , we were thinking ; FINE , LET'S GO ESCAPE INSTEAD . Guess what again ! Yes , it's closed too -.- Went to th swimming pool :/ ( Bobian ) But no swim suit ! SIAN MAX ! We tried sneak in , succeed lahh ! :) But in th end still kena chased out ! Heheheheh . Went back to shower and then makan ! Beef noodles are awesome k ! Then went back again , in th rain . HAHA . Then bowling ~ Yeahh , at Ehub . :/ Then Shiyen , Kerene and I went off early cos we needed a walk . HAHAHA . Headed to Pasir Ris park , SO MANY BLOODY EARTHWORMS . So we went back to chalet again . Heehee ^^ Waited for th rest , then went as a class to th same old park . ( Lesser worms these time , lots of frogs though , yuckkkk . ) Thanks to Jerico Songcuya for th long Piggy back , HAHAHA . :) Went to play th 'Round-and-round' thingy . DAMN GIDDY PLEASE ~~ So muddy and dirty ~ After going back to chalet , all rushed to shower and slept ~ Except a few , went out for supper . :) Some (Kerene , Earnest , Tiantian , Weichuen , Sewa , Szeli , Changrong and me ) of us tonned till five . Had a great talk about our 3E4 peeps and their silly habits . Laughed like crazy only ! Made up stupid words ! Then laughed so loud that we woke everyone up , HAHAHA . When we finally cooled down , OFF TO BED . :)

Day 3

Checked out . ): Many went home . Left with a few of us - Changrong , Tiantian , Shiyen , Xunqin , Szeli , Racia , Racia's brother , Kerene , and meee . :) At first we wanted to go WWW . But lazy to get wet and shower , so went Escape . DAMN BORING PLEASE . Plus th raining and all . HAHA . But still fun ! Pirate ship , Go kart , Haunted house , Roller coaster , Airplane , Wet and wild , Bumper boats and Ferris wheel :) Th Ferris wheel got handsome guy ! HAHAHA . We annoyed many of th staffs . HAHA . Thanks to Changrong and Xunqin ! xD Screaming on purpose huh ! ASSES ! xD So yeahh , in th end we still got wet so we regretted not going to WWW . But too late , HAHA . Anyway , i just remembered , th Burger King at Escape sucks ! ): No meals , only Ala-carte ! :/ Lousy . Anyway , continuing from where i've stopped , we all went home and Tian went to work :) Before that we dabao food up 88 , ate and slept for two hours :)

Th best chalet ever ; though quite fail xD

Awaiting a better one next year :)

3E4'1o ; we never say die . ♥

There's another chalet tomorrow ! Yicheng's . :D Hope it'll be fun !

With love ;

2010-11-17T18:51:00.002+08:00

Finally back from chalet ! I'm dead beat , oh my gosh . HAHA .
Photos are with Yuwen , so shan't upload them today ! Heheheh !

Chalet was awesome , 3E4'1o will be th class i'll never ever forget , NEVER EVER . :) A big thank you to all th 3E4 babies ! ♥

Shall blog about what happened when i have time , too tired to think about it now ! Heheheheh !
I'm having some tummy problems ): And i guess i need to get to th doctor's soon ! ): SIANNN .

I thought a lot , while i was out for these two days . I think i'm seriously too tired to carry on with any of this bullshit . It's way too much for me . Yes , because i know i'm too weak . Way too weak to get hurt again . I tried my best to runaway , all sorts of stupid ways . I'm purely avoiding every single shit . I'm just escaping from everything . At times , i still do think of you , miss you , tear for you . Whenever i go to those places we've been . You're still th first that appears in my mind . And i'll just try to avoid those thoughts because it still does make me sad and cry . I still do care after all . How dumb . Yeahh , it's damn stupid to say i don't even remember you or i never knew you . Well , at least i was loved by you once , and it was real . At least i believed and honestly felt that it was . I don't blame you , for not having a reason to leave , because i know it's just me . If i did made you suffer alone in th past then i'm sorry . And i've decided that i will not move on neither will i stay stuck here . I'll carry on with my life . Because this chalet made me realise , friends are th one that will never leave you . Never ever . To be honest , my happiest moments are always with my friends . I'm not gonna await anything else , anymore . I've accepted th fact that people do change . I'm just gonna face everything . I will not pretend to forget memories because i know it's impossible , i'll just keep them locked up in me and never bring it up again . And for now , i can honestly say , i'm never ever gonna care again . NEVER .

I'm happy now with my friends and life . :) I shall remain that way .
No more love stories , fairytales , dramas , fantasy again , ever .

♥ I swear i love 3E4 ! ^^

Great heights ;

2010-11-14T23:22:00.003+08:00

Firstly ; HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOH BRYAN KOHHHH ! ^^
Out todayyyy ~ Went to meet Leechee , Jiasheng and Dianwei today to get Bryan's birthday pressie today ! Unfortunately , didn't manage to celebrate with him in time so went to find him at his house void deck ~ Randy , Eden , Jiahao and Zac came after that . Brought Xiao DD ( Hamster ) to play with Bryan's hamster ~ :) Damn cute please ~ xD Jiahao damn violent , LOL . HAHAHA .
Then Dianwei left and Bryan went home ~ Went J8 with th rest to see them maxtune again ! Tsk . HAHAHA . Then went to eat ~ Zac left . Leechee and I left and th rest went to Jiahao's place .
And there's class chalet tomorrow ! And i'm staying over for two nights . Can't wait ^^ 3E4 FTW ~ ♥
But i'm so lazy to packkkk ~ Will upload photos if i manage to take any !
I'm so lazy to do POA now . HOWHOWHOW ?!
On a side note , balloons are awesome ~
And out of curiosity , some guys just loveeee to show off their new girlfriends ! LOL , YOU SCARED PEOPLE DON'T KNOW YOU HONGSTER MEHH . Still do this kind of things to hurt some innocent others . Annoying much .

♥ I hope you're not like every other guy .

Special ;

2010-11-13T19:14:00.001+08:00

Went out to marina square today with Sihui , Randy , Eden , Dianwei , Jiahao , Jiasheng and Marcus ! :) Hope i didn't leave anyone out ! Went maxtuning , damn boring lahh ! Then went to Sihui's house with Randy and Dianwei . Came home , changed th bedding for my hamster , DD . Then nothing do liao ~ Shall go out and find Sihui later ! :) Byebye .

♥ At least i know you care .

As sweet as candy ;

2010-11-12T09:09:00.022+08:00

So , it's been a while since i've last blogged . HAHA . I'm back ! Haha ~
My holidays weren't exactly holidays after all ! ~ First week of my holidays , HEADSTART . Wahpiang ehh ! So tired lahh ~ Others all happy happy , we studying ! Tsk . Second week , which is this week . Got work attachment . HAHA . It's like some voluntary work at childcare . Th kids were all so cute ! ^^ But , th people there not exactly very nice . So fierce ! Ohh , and i went back for my dance camp ~ Didn't get to stay because of th work attachment ~ ): But it was fun . Very !
DANCE GIRLS ARE AWESOME . :) ADAM IS AWESOME , TOO !
Next week , will be having two chalets ! Class and Yicheng's . :) Yay ! HAHA . But gonna be very tired , again , cos it's one after another . Ha ! And i'm staying over for many days ! Like awesome only ~
Last week i'll be busy too , i suppose . :/ GAHHH ~

Anyway , i've got a new pet hamster ! Thanks to someone ! :) I swear i'll take very very good care of it ! Thanks ! ♥♥♥ Shall take photos and upload it some other day ! But i'm yet to give it a name ): Still thinking ~

But th sad thing is i can't keep th terrapin anymore ! Mom doesn't like it ): Ass .

And ohh ! I heard you found a new replacement ? Tsk . So fast .

♥ Thanks for doing so much . :)

It was so real ;

2010-10-27T18:38:00.003+08:00

Okay , today was fun ~ Went inline skating with school ! :) Unfortunately , some people didn't come luhh :/ SIANN . Hahahaha ~ I remember i can still skate when i was five . Now , seriously noob dao lao sai . )': Heh . But not bad , at least i don't find balancing a problem :b HAHAHAHA . I fell down once though ! xD ( NOT BAD LIAO OKAY , haha . ) Then took class photo ! 3E4'1o ♥ Hopefully , next year all of us promote together okay ! I believe all of us will ! We still have class chalet together one okay ?! We will go there smiling , together , as a class :) We'll all go up up up together , graduate together !
After school i went to see people play soccer . And Randy got hurt man ~ ( OUCH ) He bled alot :/ Hope he's fine now ! Thanks to heheheheh ! xD Then went to lunch with Shiyen . And walked around J8 and home sweet home .
I brought my Terrapin ( Green Tea) , over to Bryan's house to help me change th water ~ Then someth nice happened . (: Anyway , after i bought new food for it , it became damn hyper lahh ! I don't even dare to hold it up ! So i wasn't able to change clean water for it ! ): Luckily , Bryan helped me :) Came home again ~ I'm sooooo gonna sleep now ! Super tired ! Might be going out later . HOPEFULLY I CAN ! ):
GOOODERR BAII ! :D

♥ It's th fourth time i met you ; th same person , at th same place .

Darkest secrets ;

2010-10-26T21:40:00.001+08:00

As usual , another sucky day ! GAHHHH . Slept so late last night that today i became a walking zombie ~ Damn siannnn . But okay lahh , at least today no need rot in class ! :) We had some activities going on . Heh . Something like playing games , completing different stations - according to different subjects . Quite fun lahh ! HAHAHA . I love th rocket station best ! Heehee . :D Then got one damn cool der Hands-on ! :D Love it man ! But bloody hell , it was detroyed cos th teacher didn't melt it properly ! Tsk >:/ HAHA .
Went for dance after school . Totally no mood , no energy . Lols . Actually , i also don't know what i dancing ~ Hehehe !
After that , went to celebrate Sihui's birthday ~ There's Randy , Dianwei , Jiasheng , Branick , and me me me ! :D A few other joined us later . Bought Tiramisu i think ! I LIKE ! (Y) And i bought her present too . After celebrating and eating th cake , all th guys started having their mentality of a six month's ! AND YES , VERY XIA SUEY . HAHAHA . Retarded ! Then we split . Some went to eat Pizza , some went out , and th rest went home .
Yes , my mood was damn damn damn bad . But somehow , someone managed to cheer me up ! :) UNKNOWINGLY OF COS . But i'm still happy ~ :)
Greatest achievement of today ? Yeahhhhh . I found out something ~ Don't know whether to trust it . But , well , i feel damn bad ): Tsk ~ Should i believe you ? Or just pretend i know nothing ? HAHA . Someone , guide me . And that will be you lord ! :) AMEN ! ♥

♥ You make me happy .

A smile like no other ;

2010-10-26T01:31:00.013+08:00

Ohh yes ! INSOMNIA AGAIN . ( Feels like insomniaaaa , ahhhh ~ ) Haha , and guess what ?! There's school tomorrow ! And there's dance after school . How awesome ~ I'm still soooo wide awake . :/
Been to Jasmine's party today ! Happy Birthday Jasmine ! :) Kinda fun ~ Th flying kite part ~ Damn joke ! Then go eat Just Asia at Marina Square there ~ Laugh until -.- HAHAHA . Stupid Jiahao anyhow only xD
Then after that a lot things happened . Damn sad ahh ~ Wish i didn't know it , man . ): Hopefully things get better lorr . I think you also won't read it so nevermind . ): Hai ! Must be happy horr..
LASTLY ;

Happy Birthday ; Baby Lam Sihui ! :D
May you be happy , ALWAYS ! ♥

Okay that's about it , off to play some games at Facebook ~ Then sleep ? :) I'm so happy that there's actually Karma . LOL .

♥ Three words ; i love you .

Fear ;

2010-10-22T20:56:00.003+08:00

Problems , what are you , honestly ? One after another , you're never ending ~ You make us tired , but you yourself ? Happily living away making us suffer . Friends , family , love , studies . All problems coming at once . I'm stuck , really . Smile ? Not that easy ~ But i've to admit , i'm a much happier girl now . Because i've let go . Friends ? I really don't know what to say . Complications and all . Some people ended up making things worse than ever . Admit your mistake ? I don't think so . So how about family . Trust . Where's th trust you all had in me ? It's gone ? Hahaaa . Went out to study , and what ? I WENT OUT TO PLAY ? That's funny and humorous . Totally bullshit . When th results are back , bet there's something new for me to be worried about , again . Yeahh , link it to my studies . HAHA , glad i passed almost all ~ Except maths . But no way , will they be contented . No way will anyone be contented , ever . I'm just so tired . If i could , if anyone could , why wouldn't we run away ?! I wish i could just disappear . So that this problems can't find me . Yes , all i can do now is just sleep away everything . Sleep , sleep and sleep . Forget about everything , forget about pain . Yeahh , easy to say , hard to freaking do all these . And now , i'm sick thanks to th haze ! Thanks haze , LOL . I've got a bad flu ~ And it's real bad . Headache ~
I think i really need courage to even do something i really want to do . But.. I guess , it doesn't really work that way anymore . I may do th things i want , but i might not have th results i want . I'm so tired :/
Okay , gonna go out soon to meet Sihui ~ If you're still up , HAVE AN EARLY NIGHT ! :)

P/s : Took away tagboard cos it's dead .

Airplanes ;

2010-10-19T21:38:00.002+08:00

Since i'm free ~ So yeahhhh . HAHA . Today was superb fun . :) Been to Changi Airport :D
With Dianwei , Shiyen , Bryan ~ ( Yeah , we went there to xia suay ourselves :/ ) HAHAHA . But it's fun okay ! Th trolleys and all ~ Heeheehee . Shall go there again next time .
And damn , there's school tomorrow ! ):
Let th pictures do th talking . :)

So.. Once upon a time ; Shiyen , Dianwei , Bryan and Renae went to a place to see planes fly ~
(Blah blah blah)

And we all lived happily ever after ♥
TH.END :)

Wishes ;

2010-10-19T03:11:00.004+08:00

Hi world . It's like almost three and i still can't sleep . ): Heeheehee ~ Out just now for a nice walk ~ Walked around th whole bloody Bishan with a moron ! Then go Amk hub when it's closing ! CRAZYYYY . Anyway , gonna sleep pretty soon ~ But thought that i'll blog since there's nothing much to do . :) AND YEAH , I'M HAVING A SLIGHT FEVERRRR .
Will be out tomorrow with Shiyen , Bryan and Dianwei ! :) Yayyyyy . LOL . Go see aeroplanes maybe ? HAHA . Hopefully nobody last minute can't come or my fever suddenly shoot up :/ HOPEFULLY LUHH . Or it'll be real siannnnn . Lols .
Haha , school's starting real soon . OHH GAWD . I'm super afraid of results lahh . Wonder how many papers will i fail . :/ Why why why marking days soooo short one ! D: Give us moreeee lahh ! And holidays , will you like hurry up arrive ?! I'm desperate for you ! Damn .
And yeah , i'm a happy girl now ~ :D A very very happy one . Smiling more than ever ~ :)
And and , PEOPLE MORE TAGSSSSS . I feel so lonely D: Thanks hunks and babes :)

P.S : Shall blog again about our trip to Changi Airport later if i have th time ! Goodnight people !

♥ I wish for you ; every day and every night .

Confession ;

2010-10-17T20:14:00.003+08:00

Was out with Shiyen laopo today ! Went shopping and all . Talked a lot about them . :) Gossiped and shopped . Heeheehee . WE EVEN SAW SOMEONE THAT'S SOOOO BLOODY DISGUSTING . But well , who gives a damn ? :D We're happy and that's enough . Crapped a lot today . Was fun . Shall go out sometime with you again okay laopo ! :D
Yeah , so something happened again .. and HAHAHAHA . And i honestly don't know which step to take anymore .

This is a nice song ;
(Translations)

Again, today I looked up into the sky aimlessly
I tried to draw your face slowly
Your lips, your eyes are so lovely today
I tell myself that I need to forget you
I keep telling myself that
I can’t see you anymore
But you’re the only one for me
It can’t be anyone else
Will you now accept my heart?

Should I tell you that I love you?
Do you know how I feel when I look at you everyday?
If you stay by my side, I don’t want anything else
Will you just please stay by my side?
Should I try to run to you?
I want to know the way you feel about me
That’s the only thing I need
I can’t imagine a day without you
Will you accept the way I feel about you?

I try to remember everything that you did to me in the past
Do you know how I feel when I look at you everyday?
If you stay by me side, I don’t want anything else
Will you just please stay by my side and protect me?

The cold looks you always give me
And the way you talk to me
Don’t matter to me anymore
Will you tell me how you feel about me?
Love you…

I love you, I love you more than anyone else in this world
If you give in to this love, I won’t expect anything else
You’re just enough for me
Should I find the courage to confess to you?
I need to know how you feel about me right now
I don’t desire anything else
I can’t live one day without you
I only love one person,
You

♥ Yes you ; i like you :/

Rainbow ;

2010-10-15T17:33:00.001+08:00

YO DUDE WHATZ UP . Hehehehe . Finally . Yes finally ! Exams are over ~ :D That's th good news :/ Th bad news is th results . OHH GAWD ~ Shan't think too much about that ~ Anyway , had a great day yesterday ! Too great till i've not studied for f&n :/ How greatttt . I'm gonna fail it ! Cos i don't know how to do all th essay questions ? Hai .
Okay , gonna go prepare soon for movies with friends . :D How awesome ! HAHA .
Byeeeeeee . (:

♥ You never fail to put a smile on my face :)

Pyramid ;

2010-10-12T14:36:00.001+08:00

Hello hello ! So it's been days ! Exams exams exams ~ Sian luhh , totally ! ): I think i'm gonna fail more than one subject this time round ! OMG ~ Today was Geog and Poa :/ SIAN . See th Poa paper only immediately stunned ! Damn it luhh . I can't do a single question . Sadddddd ~
BUTTTTT ; I'm really happy yesterday morning (: Pissed at night though ! GAHHHH . HAHA , okay i'm off to bed ! Shall take a nap ! Nights world , and dear you . ♥ :)

♥ I dropped th burden .

Gullible ;

2010-10-08T19:28:00.001+08:00

Maths paper and Social studies today ! ): I guess i'm gonna fail ~ I fell asleep last night and forget to study :/ I don't wanna retain or drop . I had better start working hard ! Only thing i need now is currently motivation ! Yeah (:
Sometimes studying helps you forget most of your problems . I guess it did help me a little . Heh ~
K , so i'm feeling a lot better these few days ! Tomorrow's gonna be better ! :D I hope . Just don't you screw up my day ! Cos , I'LL KILL YOU ! HAHA .
And somebody , give me th Math formula for love ? LOLOLOL .

♥ Honestly , no one gives a shit to your love story .

Replaced ;

2010-10-05T21:35:00.001+08:00

HELL YEAH WORLD . I've been replaced , so just congratulate me . (Y) Thanks and goodbye .

Bleed ;

2010-10-04T01:11:00.004+08:00

Pain , why do i still feel you ? Tears , why do you still flow ? Heart , why do you still ache ? :/
Yes , i'm not over it . I'm not over you . But , so what ? You're over me . You forgotten who am i . That beloved girl you once loved ? Ohh , cut th crap . What's so great about being faithful ? Getting hurt in th end ? So that's my prize ? Yeah , maybe i should learn from you , and STOP being faithful right ? We're constantly finding replacements . For what ? There's no meaning to this . Fight to move on ? That's childish . Really childish . Well , i see you've gotten somebody before i did . But so what ? I can do nothing , i'm helpless . Bet you love seeing me that way ? Ha . Stupid , really stupid , and DUMB . Yeapp , it's time to learn . Nothing lasts forever . And th only thing , that doesn't change , is CHANGE , itself . Days have passed , i've thought so much . But , why don't i ever ask myself , FOR WHAT . Like , seriously . Memories are what's left of us , i'm still keeping them and bringing them around like they are what it's gonna be in th future ? They are supposed to be a part of me , that's kept so deep down . Gosh , Renae Mayuki , since when , since when are you so dumb ? Or perhaps you've always been this gullible , and so bloody dumb that you've got duped for billions of times . Ha , don't you find yourself a joke ? Renae , you're gonna grow to be harsh this time . Harsh and smarter . A lot , smarter . Sometimes , assholes won't mean what they say ! Criticize her to me , then fall for her . HAHA , hey boy, i've got only one thing to tell you . YOU'RE SO BLOODY AWESOME . You make me go WHOA . I'm really speechless . I just gotta realise , it isn't worth . It really isn't . And why th hell am i crapping here and staying up to crap about this for you . And it's time you go away , pain . And tears , no matter how much you flow , he won't be there to wipe them . So stop it .

♥ Ain't gonna promise this time ; cos this time , I SWEAR , I WILL .

Beautiful ;

2010-09-30T19:32:00.004+08:00

Credits to Michelle , Hills and Xt (:

Thanks to all th awesome hunks and babes :)

Hey ! So today's a great day for me ! :)

First things first ;
I would like to thank all those who wished me Happy Birthday ! :D Especially those who called ! Your wishes are very very appreciated ! And and , if you wished me on Facebook but didn't get my reply , it's spoiled . :/ Will reply you asap , if you somehow managed to see this . HA ~ And Sewa says he wanna be on th pending list for don't know what ! xD Insanity ~ EOY ! I'm super worried for it . Damn ~ Motivation , come back to me lehh ! ):

SPECIAL THANKS ♥

Hillary , Michelle and Xinting ;

Thank you so much for th surprise today babies !! :D Th cake you guys baked was awesome ! LOTSOFLOVEEEE ! Lemon cheesecake ftw :D And thanks for your letter Michelle ! ^^

Jacelyn , Priscilla , Leechee and Tom ;

Thank you so much for my terrapin and stars you guys folded ! And jacelyn , i love your letter . :D

Poh Shiyen , Acer ;

Thanks for your tasty cakes ! :D AWESOME ALSO ! :D

Sihui ;

Love you ttm ! Thanks for your present and letter ! Super nice lahh please ! :D

Yuwen ;

AWESOME SPAGHETTI :D Love it so much ! ^^

Branick ;

I LOVE TH CUP KAYY ! Water water (:

Kerene ;

Thanks for th letter (:

F A M I L Y ;

Thanks for celebrating and remembering my birthday ! (: Th presents were awesome ; LOVES .

Thank god for letting me come into this world this day and meet so many wonderful people in my life :) Amen .

E.O.Y ;

2010-09-29T22:20:00.003+08:00

Exams exams exams ! Everybody so busy studying and whaaat ?! I haven't even touched on my revision ! Sooo dead . Sian ttm :/ Cleared Cheena and Engrish alr :/ Like , finally ! But th bad thing is , i didn't manage to finish like almost half of my Cheena paper ! Yuck ._. And my for Engrish comprehension , FAIL LIAO SIAH . Like a chim only :/ Hope my Cheena and Engrish can pass ! I'm super worried for my upcoming papers ): Especially my Maths papers and Chem papers lahh ! I hate EOY ~ Full of stress ! GAHGAHGAH ~ Examinations , promise me you'll be good and hurry end , stop making me feel miserable okay ! ): BUT THEN STILL , wish everybody good luck for their EOY papers ! :D
God bless ♥

♥ Miss you , miss you not .

Sweet treats ;

2010-09-24T23:59:00.004+08:00

First attempt - FAIL . ):

A charred bottom ):

Tiantian's muffins ! :D Not baked yet ~

Second attempt - PASSSS :D

Awesome ! :D

After cutting th awesome cake :D


On th day itself :D My F&n practical ~

However , OILY SOUP ):

Hehehe , had F&n practical few days back and look at our hard work ! Very awesome right ? I know (: Although first few times failed but at least we tried :D Been over to Tian's house to practise like mad ~ Hehehe ~ Regretted not practising th Chicken stew lahh :/ See how fail it is ?! Gosh ~ But i'm happy with my cake/muffins :D Enjoyed th process ~ Will be out tomorrow i guess ? Gosh , i need to seriously start motivating myself to S T U D Y ! ): And Happy Birthday to Viandra Goenadie ! :D You say you always read my blog so i posted this for you ~ Don't bluff me horr ~ Heehee , recover soon dear ~
Nights , world ~ :D

Fate ;

2010-09-20T21:18:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went to bake cake at Tian's place . SO AWESOME :D Heehee , first time th base got burnt , but on top still nice . Second time pass with flying colours lehh :D Like a happy only ~ MWAHAHAHA . Many people tried , and said it was nice . I hope it was too , for you ? :/ Don't know ~ Whatever . Today sucked until something awesome happened (: Best thing ever in my life . HAHA , it was after school , i went with Shiyen and Sihui to TPY , supposed to check out th tuition centres , but forgot all about it ! GAHH . But anyway , went to eat at Koufu and drink Koi Hazelnut Milk Tea yo ! NICENICE . Then went separate ways with Sihui . While walking to braddell , then something so unexpected happened sioh , like a funny ~ Me and Shiyen totally happy 起来。Lols .

Why you so weird ?! Slaps :/ Nowadays a lot of two faced people ~ Society ! What are you becoming into ?! DADADADA .

♥ Unexpected unexpected :/

He wasn't there ;

2010-09-19T00:37:00.003+08:00

Today celebrated lantern festival ~ Quite cool . Except for th Pms part ? LOL . OMGOMGOMOGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG ~ Annoying piece of dabian :/ SHIT YOU . I don't like you asshole ~ Make me pms also :/
Anyway , back to th festival part ~ Super fun can ~ But then went home early , cos wasn't feeling good ~ Heehee :D But well , had fun lahh , played with candles and stuffs like that . Me talking to Shiyen now and she's super LAMES ( inside joke ) HAHA :D

And and , some people really very weird . Keep changing their minds ? Don't know what they thinking , can i just slap them ? ( I wish i could ) LOL .

不算什么爱错就爱错
早点认错早一点解脱
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰 ; 拥抱

你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你
是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用

Why this song so nice ?! :D This is only part of th lyrics , but well , made me feel stronger .

♥ A change of heart ?

Crash and burn ;

2010-09-17T20:38:00.003+08:00

Hey blog (: Lol , super bored now ~ Gonna redo my f&n ! ): So sad luhh , cos apple crumbles difficult to make lehh ~ Howhowhow ?! So dead ~ I don't know what to change to at last minute and i'm still staring at my screen . O_O ( STUNNED ) Aiyo , i'm gonna crap loads ~ Cos me is super bored now yo ! LOL , today walked around th whole J8 for don't know how many hours ~ Like a tired only ~ :/ SHAG . Anyway , Teo Meng Hoo is an awesome teacher ! :D HAHA , random ~ He's teaching like a nice only ya know ! Very funny too ! :D Enjoyable , at least we get to learn , unlike last time . Lols ! HAHA . Okay lahh , i'm already speechless , so TATA :D

I have to remember that you've forgotten me ~ I have to remember , i was th one who made th wrong choice myself . So , i cannot , i really cannot .

♥ And now i regretted so badly .

Last straw ;

2010-09-16T22:14:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA , extremely tired today . Both emotionally and physically . Still had dance man :/ SYF choreography was awesome ! (: So pretty ! Heh . Anyway , was locked outta house today cos i forgot my keys . Can you imagine how pissed i was ?! Already enough sad already luhh ~ BASTARD . Then still like that ! ): Then just reached home only ~ SIAN TTM .

Anyway , can you tell me why are you so disgusting ?! GROSS . Totally . Becoming more and more proud , ohh gosh . And not sparing a thought for others ? SELFISH SHIT .

But nope , you don't affect me (: So byebye ~

♥ Get out of my sight , pretty please ? (:

Hurt so bad ;

2010-09-15T21:56:00.001+08:00

Heyhey ! Still feeling heaty right now ! I'm stunned at th things i have to do for my coursework . YEAHYEAH , you got it , F&N AGAIN . :/ Damn sian leyy ~ ): HAHAHA , doubt i'll be doing tonight . Too many distractions and i don't know what to do ~ Somebody , help me . HA ~ Hopefully , i'll remember to bring my thumbdrive tomorrow ! :/
Extremely sian today ? Nothing much to talk about . Had a blackout early in th morning and mother was like throwing tantrums >:/ Super noisy you know ! Like wake up early in th morning to give her scold siah ~ ): I woke up 5.45 and guess what ! Still late ! Cos had to wait for my uncle to come ~ Tsk . Then went to meet Cheryl and late together ~ HAHA . We skipped checkings .School life ~ Hmm , after school OM released me and her cos we've got valid reaons ( Yeah , th blackout :/ ) Went for lunch with Tian they all , then went to meet Shiyen . Then a lot of commotions ~ After that we went to "EMO" for like 45 minutes or so bahh . Really keep anyhow think one leyy ~ What to do ? GIRLS . HA !
Exams are coming ! Damn , so near ! I've got seriously no time and mood to study ? But i'll have to work hard . It's my future after all :/ HAI ! Troublesome ~ I need a break ): Please ?
Day after day, i don't know what am i really feeling inside . What should i do ? People really do change . And that sucks ! Especially when it's a change of heart , or a change for th worst . Alright, shall end here . :D BYE WORLD . Off to rot (:

♥ I'm almost there ! (:

First dance ;

2010-09-14T22:04:00.002+08:00

Sometimes hatred can change to love , and love can be changed to hatred . So yeah , I HATE YOU, like seriously , asshole .
Weird . Really , extremely weird . Unexpected things happen , i'll never expect so many weird things to happen to myself . Unpredictable , really . Maybe that's life ? Ha ~ What's wrong with me today ? Is it cos of th heat that caused my brain to go crazy ? LOL . I don't know , why would i suddenly fear you not replying today ? :/ And you still really never reply ! Weird , really weird . I'm seriously lost .

♥ 又爱上了不该爱的人了吗?

All smiles ;

2010-09-13T19:41:00.004+08:00

Gosh , don't know why weather so hot nowadays ! Tsktsk . ): Feel so heaty now ~ I think my fever is back ! DAMN IT . I fall sick once every month , for like three months already ! What happened to you my dear stamina ): HAHA . Anyway , school was okay today :D Went with Shiyen after school . ( SEE , I'M FEATURING YOU AGAIN ASSHOLE ! xD ) DAMN FUN ~ We went back to braddell to get my stuff ! Then went to Toa Payoh Central to eat Kfc , talked alot horr Shiyen ! xD Then went to Kiddy Palace to "relive" our memories ! (: Super awesome ! :D We even bought our favourite Baby bites ! Those biscuits for babies one luhh ~ Then went to Popular , looked around like two crazy people . She's super noisy ! Everything also blue blue blue . Tsk xD YELLOW NICER KAYY . Hee . After that , she brought me to some weird place . Shall skip that , cos no point saying xD SHE SCAMMED ME ANYWAY . HAHA . After that , we walked to interchange together having heart to heart talk , again ! Said goodbye to Lam , then sat bus home with Shiyen together ! And we promised to be each other's bridesmaid ! (: Depending on who gets married first ! HAHA . Sweet right , don't jealous okay ! :D And huh , i think my fever spoiled my brain xD Off to do my F&n later ~ Now super lazy ):
End of today , Byebye world .

♥ Don't know ; don't care .

Confusion ;

2010-09-12T22:48:00.002+08:00

HAHA , it's been days , folks (: Lots of things happened this holiday . I wanna talk more about th AMAZING RACE ; also known as th WOW CHASE , i had on friday . It's fun . We played with all kinds of weird things luhh . For example ; th Captain Squid , whereby you have to play captain's ball , USING A SQUID . ( Yeah, it's gross xD ) And some Poison ball or whatever ~ Washing of hair to see who created more foam ~ MOST AWESOME ONE .... I HELD TWO WORMS ^^ Fun leyy . HAHA . Just now went to causeway , then had hokkien mee and kway teow ~ Tastes like th one i had at Changi Airport ! :D Superrrr nice (:

Anyway , it's th third holiday of this year , which i've spent being sad , again . How awesome ~ HAHAHA .( Sadistic :/ ) I went to another house of mine . Stayed there , to get away from things . At least for a while (: Thought alot . Really alot . I know what to do now ~ You know , we should look at all th little things in life . They're actually th prettiest ! Seriously (: Last time, i used to take everything for granted . But now , when you look around at those little things and notice them. They're actually more awesome than all those big things in life ! For example , birds chirping , leaves rustling in th winds ~ BEAUTIFUL (: Remember to notice them more yeah ! Don't only regret when you don't get to see them anymore .

Memories should be kept deep within me . And nope , it will never surface to reality . Sometimes, when i miss you i'll just take this memories out , look through them , take a quick refresh . But no, it will never ever let it become false hopes again . For that sweet boy i once knew , disappeared (: And i know he'll never return . I accepted that . He's moved on, and now it's my turn . He's now only a part of my memory . I mean like , since you're doing all those to show me , why should i make you feel worse , annoyed , and hang on ? I'm determined , this time . (: I can't be bothered to please anyone , you . I've realised , everything that i'm doing , is all for you . When would it be for myself ? Or should i say , this time it would . (: You can have your own fairytales , stories , your Cinderella . I don't want to be involved in any of your stupid , dumb stories anymore . I'll make my own . I will not , try to get myself a character in your story anymore . I find myself so stupid . But well , i will get smarter this time (: Slowly but surely !
D E T E R M I N A T I O N is th key , i guess i'll have to train it . (:

♥ Speechless at your acts .

Wounded ;

2010-09-07T18:11:00.001+08:00

It's been days , and .. i guess i'm just getting used to th pain .

Exhausted ;

2010-09-05T02:41:00.004+08:00

So tired of trying , so tired of getting hurt , over and over again . But , why ? Why am i still hanging on ? This sucks , it really sucks . I think i don't wanna have it anymore . I don't wanna try anymore . I know i've tried , sacrificed . I threw away my dignity , face . But , do you know ? You don't . You'll never . I'm really tired . Super super exhausted . I need a break , a long one , a permanent one . I'm breaking down , i'm tearing apart . And what ? You're still ignoring , you can't be bothered . You remain happy and strong , i remain broken and weak . I shouldn't be . I must not be . I guess this is final , i hope this IS final . It will be over , it IS over . I have to accept it , really .

I cry for th time that you were almost mine ,

I cry for th memories you left behind ,

I cry for th pain , th lost , th old and th new ,

I cry for th times i thought , i had you .
* But all these crying never did make a difference . HA .

♥ Should i say , goodbye ?

Outta control ;

2010-09-03T20:04:00.005+08:00

Time passes so fast that it's already th holidays ! Like a bullet train only ! HEE . Shall not talk much about today but anyway , Sorry , Phan Dangkhoa for killing your leg . xD Well , if you wanna know why , it's just cos th bottle accidentally hit his kneecap while i was playing soccer with him :/ And yeah , he's th goalkeeper , and i was th one who kicked th bottle (way too hard :x) SORRY :/ Shall not talk much about today . Shall talk more on th plans i'm gonna have . And what i've learnt after returning to school since June .
A lot of things happened . Seriously , it's more than i can take it . But , thinking of it in another way , i've learnt a lot too ! Best part ? I've become stronger . Yes , stronger . Though , it's a little . But i know , i seriously did . And i'm glad ~ Not all bad things that happened are sucky alright ! Perhaps they're just blessings in disguise ! Alot of bad things happened . Most of my friends know . And it happened to them , too . We're all in th same boat ~ But ! We made it through together (: Though it's tough , but you know , we made it . We're almost there . I'm glad i didn't give up halfway . I didn't let myself go . That's why , i'm still living happily with everyone . I will continue to be like this , and yeah , gain more strength , to become a better and stronger person . And you know , time won't stop for me anymore . I've accepted that . (:
Next up , PLANS . Well , my results kinda suck . Though i only failed Maths (since primary 5 alright !) , th rest were borderline passes ! Guess i really have to work doubly hard ! Shall study , study , study . But i don't think i can resist th temptation of playing , GOSH . I should start feeling th urgency for my Olevels . And yeah , have a little amount of them coming to me already . HEEEEE .

♥ I promise , i won't be your obstacle , i'll be your stepping stone .

False hopes ;

2010-09-02T23:37:00.003+08:00

HEEHEEHEE . Hi world (: Yesterday was okay . Went for bowling and movies . DON'T WATCH CATS AND DOGS ! Super suck . Although cinema quite budget , but still okay lahh . HEEHEE . Ate Hokkien Prawn Mee and ice-cream before heading home .
Didn't go to sch today , therefore nothing much to talk about . Partly , cos i overslept . And seriously didn't feel very well too . I thought i needed a break . Only remembered folding cranes and went out for dinner with Tian . YEAH . MUSHROOM SWISS . (: AWESOME . Missing someone can be so painful sometimes . Really . Especially when you know you'll never get into that person's thoughts , AT ALL . It's so hard to accept that th person that once loved you so much has let go , isn't it ? But , everytime this happens , you'll just have to know that God , has never left you :D But really , does time heal all wounds ? I don't know . I don't think it works on me . In a mess , right now . And boy ; take care .

I'm scared because ,
I don't want anyone else to hold your hands ;

I don't want anyone else to be in your arms ;

I don't want anyone else to kiss your lips ;

I don't want anyone else to have your heart ;

I don't want anyone else to be th one you love ;

I'm scared because ..

I don't want anyone else to take my place .

♥ Why do i still trust you ?

Chitty chitty , Bang bang ! (:

2010-08-31T20:28:00.003+08:00

Awesome , today's awesome . Simply , AWESOME :D HEEHEE ~ Today so happy ! Like for so long never so happy before alr . Let's talk about today more into detail okayyyy ! :D Kayy , let's start off with th morning ~ We had this silly ACES DAY thingy . BUT , awesome :D Made my class damn damn damn high (: We went insane dancing all over th place . While th teacher went "Punch , punch , and punch , and left punch , and punch and punch .." LOL LAHH . Punch , kick and jump only ! But fun also ! Then we went back class for 'Beautifying' our school - which simply means to clean up our class . Well , some of us went down to clean Miss Kim's class . Had fun talking to Mrs Goh ! Miss lower sec man ): If only we had more time to talk to her ! ): Not long after , Racia and i , together with th other dance members , left early for our performance . And PLUS , this is like our favourite dance and costume lahh ! :D Although we worried a little about our hairstyle , but it isn't so bad after all ! GEEZ . :D Okay , performance was good ! Took picture with dance members and yeah , went bathing ~ Shiokk :D Then , went back to Teck Ghee :D 6B'o7 rocks forever okay ! HEE . Met up with many primary school mates . Missed those times :/ HAHA , when we used to play soccer together , having fun playing scissors paper stones at th fitness corner , where we would always stay back together after school and fool around , when we will never have to bother about relationship problems , where we always laugh all day when Mr See cracks all those lame jokes (: Those times , money also cannot buy one leyy ! So people , we should treasure each and every second of our life alright ! Don't regret not treasuring them or not doing enough only when they're gone . And also , time won't stop for anyone . Th world still revolves without you ! Okay , continuing from where i've stopped , i went Bishan Active . WALAO , like another awesome only :D Really became literally , ACTIVE . Fun ~ At first , walked to Bishan North Shopping Mall to get myself a drink and Origami paper . Fold cranes until hands cramp lorr ! TSK :/ But anyway , so many jokers were there lahh , laughed like a mad only ! :D Then i learnt to play volleyball okay ! (OUCHHH) HEEHEE . Then played 'Marco Polo' and many more :D SO STICKY . Geez ~ Went Each-A-Cup and bought honey milk tea (Yay , awesome) , then headed home . Awesome day isn't it ! Hope there'll be more awesome and happy days like this in future ! :DD Btw , i'm so proud of my long post today ! xD HAPPY HAPPY EVERYBODY ! :D *Bangs*

♥ A day of reminiscence .

One thousand paper cranes ;

2010-08-28T23:00:00.009+08:00

Do you know ? According to Japanese tradition, if you fold one thousand origami cranes (senbazuru :D) , the cranes will grant you your heart's desire . An old Japanese legend said that anyone who folds a thousand paper cranes pleases the gods , so , the person who folded those cranes will be granted a wish . Interesting ehhs ? :D I remembered my papa once told me about it ! So went to web and "researched" a little . HEE ~ And today i've learnt to make some paper cranes from some of th band members as they had their CIP . Super nice i tell you ~ Wonder how many they folded lahh ~ I quite smart kayy , see once know alr horr (: I folded lots of colours , included gold and silver ~ NICEEEE . Well , i think i'm gonna fold one thousand of them ! For happiness ; for a wish to come true . :/

As for today , all i can remember is , CHURCH SESSION AT YICHENG'S HOUSE WAS AWESOME . Folding hearts and cranes were awesome , too :D And lastly , the rock melon also like a awesome only ~ :D Teehee , that's all i can remember ~ And damn , people should learn to have some originality ! :/ Nights world (:

♥ All for your happiness , boy .

Transparent ;

2010-08-28T01:13:00.001+08:00

HI WORLD . Moody day . :/ Had Teacher's Day rehearsal after school today . I just couldn't get th steps right ! Annoying ~ Worse of all , it's because of a stupid reason . Totally dumb . Honestly , i'm transparent anyway . SHAGGGG . Went home , bought my mixmix ice cream , walked home , bathed , didn't eat , slept till eleven plus plus . Woke up and now blogging . Going off soon to do my stuff . End of today . Nights world .

♥ Honestly , get out of my head so i can go to sleep .

Unexpected ;

2010-08-26T19:15:00.001+08:00

Today , really a lot of unexpected things happen ~ HAI . Annoyed man ~ Slept damn late last night and today was like a human zombie ! ): GOSH . Overall was fine . After school , we had our practical exam for Bio and Chem . Th bloody aluminum solution hurt me ): HATE YOU CHEM ~ HAHA , and i know it'll sure be a F ! HAHA , went for cca after that . Saw a lot of things , which were so .. UNEXPECTED . Yeah ~ That's what you call the other side of a person perhaps . But it's not just one , but of many people . And billions of other sides :/ But anyway , now i'm back home ! Later will be meeting Tiantian and Yuwen for dinner , then Kerene to go watch fireworks ! :D But i'm so tired and hungry now ~ ): HAHA . Shall sleep early tonight ! :/

♥ I'll do what i can , for you to be happy (:

True colours ;

2010-08-25T00:50:00.001+08:00

OHH MAN HI BLOG ! HAHAHA (: Just finished my bloody English -.- CREDITS TO WANG TIANTIAN . :D Shall be more detailed about today ! Today's extremely weird i tell you ~ Or perhaps yesterday since it's past twelve . Everybody's like in PMS mood today ! Gosh :/ HAHA , early morning our class got pms ! Thanks to Rashida ~ She was scolding us for nothing , but things got better afterwards (: Total joke ! Then we had problems with Wendy ~ UGH . Annoying . Well , skip skip skip . *Bell rings* End of school :D Went for lunch with Hillary , Beiting , Racia and Michelle . Then went for dance . Wah , love this dance like a super only ~ NICEEEE and AWESOMEEE . :D Luckily Adam was in a good mood today , all of us enjoyed dancing yo ~ After that , waited for Tiantian , Yuwen and Sihui . Met Eden they all at bubble tea . Okay , this part is damn paiseh . I fell down in front of like millions of people -.- ( Okay maybe not so much , about fifteen -.- ) Then all damn basket siah , laugh until like a loud only . I'M FAMOUS -.- THEN ! Another annoying thing happened . Was drinking Dianwei's chocolate milk until LOWYUWEN pushed me . TADA , black mouth , black shirt , black handphone strap ! ): "LOVE" you so much lowlowlow ): HAHA but still fun . At least today , our old group reunited for once , again (: 7 cute peeps :DD HAHA ! After that , went over to Burger King to take free ice-cream ! HAHA , i also like a bad mood so ate two caramel ice cream . DAMN SWEEEEET . Made me feel better though . And all of us headed home at eight (: Today's hilarious ! :D I found out who are truly deserved to be my true friends . And who are those who put on a fake front ! Finally . (: Tomorrow will rock ! :D

♥ I don't get jealous anymore .

Never gonna happen ;

2010-08-23T16:08:00.001+08:00

Yoyoyo ! Today's a happy day (: I'm home early to bathe and later meeting Shiyen for lunch ~ Like a hungry ! :/ WE'RE GOING FOR YOG LATER ~ Teehee ~ Although athletics , but better than nothing right ! HAHA :b I know many of you jealous . GAHHHH . But sad luhh , later still got my darn f&n coursework . LOL , it's damn friggin' boring yo . I hate you coursework . :/ HAHA . We'll be going to the Bishan Stadium at about 6.30 . It ends about 9.30 ~ Where do i find th time to finish lahh ? -.- Plus got f&n test- and yeah , two chapters . DAMN . I think tonight me no need to sleep already ! And you uhh , YES YOU . Can reply other girls can't reply me . SHITTTT . Okay ~ I'm gonna go prepare already . BAIBAI readers , LOTS OF LOVE ! (:

♥ I'll be contented enough to know if your heart's still with me .

You're the only exception.

2010-08-21T23:26:00.005+08:00

Yohoho ! I see you again , blog . Today went to bugis with my wife , Shiyen ! (: We walked around to find my dress for teacher's day performance. Like a wth only , hunted like mad . Teehee . I searched and searched until finally , i found you , dress ! :D HAHA ! Well , not bad luhh . Quite cheap and nice . Went over to beatty for badminton with my wife , went for dinner ,then had fun at Cheng's house having some church preaching . DEPICT MY LIFE SIAH . LOL . I'm trying my best to smile these few days , BUT WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT ? Gosh :/ But i don't deny , life's getting better after i slowed down my pace of living . What for rush ? You'll end up suffering being right in front . Humans are really weird creatures aren't they ? They get so tired of everything , but some still chose to hang on , and continue believing and getting hurt . Worst of all , some of them even know th truth but can't accept it . I do , but why can't i accept it ? It's taking a darn long time . And yes , i'm tired too . Of everything , but why ? Why do i still choose to believe and hang on ? Despite knowing it's impossible . Is it th memories ? Or simply just you ?

♥ But you're taking and not giving anymore .

Beautiful nightmare ;

2010-08-18T18:13:00.001+08:00

Hihi ! Today is much much much happier than yesterday lahh ~ FULL OF SMILES :D God bless-ed ! ♥ Okay , maybe a little sad , but it doesn't matter much anyway .. Today woke up being really tired luhh , like seriously . Forgot to buy my favourite Symphony Chocolate ): Supposed to help me cheer up , but well , i did it myself ! Like a pro only ~ HAHA . So bored now , gonna start on th homework i dread most ! GAHHHH . F&n coursework . Research after research . TEARRRR . )': Anyways , found out alot of things yesterday . Well , guess i'll have to live with it ! You better be happy and smile all day i tell you . ( If you know who you are , but i guess it's quite obvious :/ ) Quite glad to hear you being superb happy yesterday .. HAHA . Okie dokies , mama shall end here today , TATA . Loves to all ! (:

♥ Baby let me love you down .

You're never wrong ;

2010-08-17T18:35:00.002+08:00

HAHA , EPIC DAY . Broke down after sch .. Thanks Yuwen , Michelle , Zen and Kerene ~ And of cos more people too ~ Well , was wondering.. is being a true friend wrong ? Lols . What are people that never ever accept their faults ? Why am i always th one voicing out for others and getting myself into deeeeep shit ? And especially when i'm not th one who started it , and still have to admit it's my fault . AND AFTER ADMITTING ? GOSH . I'm a human and i have my limits too ! Trying to give in time after time . After awhile , we get tired too ! So if being a true friend gets this kind of shit , i'll be a mean one from today on . What's wrong with everyone nowadays ! Why do they repay you in a different way you treat them ? Especially when you treat them good , truly from th bottom of your damn heart ?! GRRRRRR . I'll keep everything to myself from today on . Cos i don't even know exactly , which of my friends are true . Maybe i should be a little more smart to not help them settle their problems like they asked me to . I've had enough , of everything . Damn you , RENAE MAYUKI YOU SHOULDN'T BE SO NEGATIVE , CHEEERRRRRRR UPPPP ):

♥ OHMYGOD.

Limits ;

2010-08-16T21:11:00.004+08:00

On th verge of breaking down ! UGH . Projects after projects , homework after homework . PROBLEMS AFTER PROBLEMS ! OHMYGOSH :/ When will i ever break free ?! Didn't even get to watch my UNRIDDLE ): Damn it . Anyway , let's talk a little more about today , since i'm quite speechless about today , but too bad , i'm just plain bored now . THEREFORE , shall blog crap . Today we had assembly . And , first time in my life i find th talk so damn nice lahh ~ ( Like a meaningful only ~ ) HAHA . Then had classes , classes and classes -.- After school we had maths test on circles . HAHA . Don't need say , confirm fail . Given Olevel question somemore lehh ~ DEAD . But anyway , did enjoy myself with those lovely babies of mine , Yuwen , Tian and Shiyen playing th iPad at best ! :D ( Cheapskate ; i know xD ) I love th table of elements song ! ANYWAY ~ Sometimes , i don't know whether i'm living my life too fast , or too slow . Well , was thinking , maybe , i should live life , a little slower . Don't rush , but go in a slower pace , to actually enjoy everything , every moment and everyone around me . Or should i speed up , and study my way through ? I really don't know . Can someone give me an answer ? Beacuse i really have no idea where to obtain strength , to hang on anymore . For i've lost my pillar .. GOD BLESS ! ♥

♥ Never will i turn back .

Forget it ;

2010-08-15T00:44:00.003+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG . HAHA , i'm home ! From th awesomeeee concert :D Love it . Maybe not . I'm going insane , world . Somebody tell me what to do ? I doubt i even existed in one second of your thoughts while you were doing all those sickening stuffs to show me . GOSH . I hate you , not . Okay maybe i hate you . Okay i have no idea what am i talking about . Readers , you can ignore me . This is totally idiotic post . YOU WANT THE WORLD DON'T YOU . WTHHHHHHHHH .

♥ You want everybody except me .

Th good old times ;

2010-08-10T15:23:00.002+08:00

Hello everybody ! :D Yesterday was national dayyyyy ~ Went out with Sihui , Leechee , Dianwei , Jiasheng , Eden , Junjie , Dangkhoa , Jiahao and Yicheng . Hope i didn't miss out anyone ! :/ We started off with bowling ~ HAHA . Waited very long for our lane siah ! Cos too many people , alot of families . Hmm , then we went for a walk then to have our dinner ~ BURGER KING ROCKS I TELL YOU :D My double mushroom swiss ~ :D HAHA ! As for the fireworks , quite little lor . As in from my lousy angle ): Can't see much ! GOSH ; WASTED ): Well supposed to go for fishing today , but overslept .. DAMN ! Love this weekend + public hols ! BYEBYE :DD

♥ I smile each and every time i hear your name .

You're not sorry ;

2010-08-08T16:19:00.004+08:00

( Ohh yeah , it's th cookies me and Yen made , eight of them here :D )

Hello earthlings ! I'm updating for Shiyen ! By th way , i love today ! HAHA please don't ask why (: I just love today . Anyways , had fun yesterday , laughed alot ~ And i love th preachings yesterday :D Thank lord , AMEN ! Well , i'm super bored now though , cos i never go out today ): And my mother's going crazy now . DAMN NOISY -.- she's super irritating ~ LOL . I WANNA GO OUT . Nothing to do at home lor ~ Only rotting ):
On a side note ;
I ♥ SHOW !

♥ I love th way you lie ;

Do you still remember ?

2010-07-31T22:38:00.003+08:00

Okay , hello everyone . Today sucks ! All th rotten stuff happened in a day . And yesterday as well . ZZZ . But anyways , yesterday was show luo's birthday , so my day wasn't so bad after all :D
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN SHOW ! (Your loyal fan forever , yay ! ) Well , today went for badminton again . Quite fun ~ HAHA . But i kept getting lost in my thoughts..
And i wonder.. if you actually remember.. th times we had ? Will you actually miss me ? Will i appear in your thoughts once in awhile even though things are different now ? Will people stay loyal to you forever ? And friends , which of you are actually true ? My mind's in a mess now ~ I really don't know what to do . I just hope , everything will get better one day .

♥ And i hope .

Self-doubt ;

2010-07-28T23:44:00.005+08:00

OMG , nothing to blog again ! :/ Let's talk about yesterday! No dance (Y) Ohh yeah ! Went with Michelle , Wil , Wuating and Jon for lunch after school . Chicken rice ftw yo ! HAHA :D After that met with Jerico , then went library ~ Wua ting and Michelle went home . Jon went for cca . Me , Wil and Jerico went library to study ~ Funny lehh got people FARTTTT :D Funny lehh ~ Not long later Tian came and we went home together :D Th end ! HAHA kidding . Today sucks \m/ LOL . Kidding , again . ( Not funny , i know ) Well , today was still fun lahh :D Tomorrow will be better .

Oh woooah, oh woooooah, oh wooooah, oh.
You know you love me, I know you care,
you shout whenever and I'll be there.
You are my love, you are my heart
and we will never ever ever be apart.
Are we an item? girl quit playing,
were just friends, what are you saying.
Said theres another, look right in my eyes,
my first love broke my heart for the first time.
And I was like

Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you'd always be mine, mine (repeat)

Oh, for you I would have done whatever,
and I just can't believe we aint together
and I wanna play it cool but I'm losing you
I buy you anything, I buy you any ring,
and now please say baby fix me and you shake me til you wake me from this bad dream.
I'm going down down down down
and I just cant believe my first love won't be around.
And Im like

Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you'd always be mine, mine (repeat)

[RAP :D ]
Luda, When I was 13 I had my first love,
there was nobody that compared to my baby
and nobody came between us, no-one could ever come above
She had me going crazy, oh I was star-struck,
she woke me up daily, dont need no Starbucks.
She made my heart pound, I skip a beat when I see her in the street and
at school on the playground but I really wanna see her on the weekend.
She knows she got me dazing coz she was so amazing
and now my heart is breaking but I just keep on saying.

Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you'd always be mine, mine (repeat)

Now Im gone,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
now Im all gone.
Gone, gone, gone, gone, Im gone.

♥ Th one thousand 'iloveyou's .

Plain truth ;

2010-07-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

Yoyoyo ! HAHA . Today is Racial Harmony day ! Met Michelle in th morning today ! Wore Kebaya and Tian wore Cheongsam ( WE ARE RESPONSIBLE CLASS LEADERS :D ) HAHA . Epic lahh :/ Well , had fever today morning and it's getting worse now ): Wondering if i should go to school tmr ! Tsk . So sian . HATE FEVERS . :/ Then ever hear before sick still force yourself perform ? That kumgong person is me -.- Lols . I perform until like keep laughing only ~ 丢人现眼 ! :x I think today was th worse performance i had . Anyways , i'm really bored now ~ SOMEBODY TELL ME WHAT TO BLOG ! And god bless my fever faster recover :/ And i want to say .. Nights world and earthlings ! :D

♥ It will be over , soon .

Second glance ;

2010-07-17T00:27:00.003+08:00

WHATTHEFUCK . HAHA . Hello hello readers ! Now like pissed only ~ THANKS TO YOU . Seriously okay , listen up . Please lahh , how long have we been tolerating your bullshit ? Lols, you never admitted defeat . You simply think you are ALWAYS RIGHT . Now what ? Complain to SOMEBODY about me ?! DAMN . CAN'T BE BOTHERED IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME . I SAID I DID MEANS I DID . WTH . Do whatever you want kayy -.- TSK . HAHAHAHA , loser . Since you rather believe that damn person , then FORGET IT . And nice one , cos you even do th things which you backstab somebody about . Since you don't trust me , i find no point to trust you anymore too (: SO BYE .
Okay this sucks , seriously . So i decided to cancel it .

♥ I only follow my heart now .

Damn ;

2010-07-15T20:44:00.004+08:00

HAHA . Today was fun , had lots of fun singing in class ~ BUT. I'm feeling really really emo now :/ Maybe it's really time to let go . My heart somehow , isn't with you anymore. I guess , you too . Well , thanks for th memories . To you , it might be nothing at all . But to me , it's everything . Well , I won't be looking at you , missing you , hurting or feeling jealous for you again . It's just so tiring . Obstacles after obstacles . We passed it all . But if you can forget and let go of all these . I don't find a point why can't i . There are other people trying to make me smile all day . You're th opposite . You're a lie , a fairytale . Everything but reality . And please . TELL ME STRAIGHT IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME . Stop giving a person false hope for th sake of holding her back to move on . But not wanting to keep her . Seems like everybody is unhappy today . BAD DAY . :/ HA , this post is really emo . IDON'TLIKE .

♥ Baby ; cos you know , i'll always be dumb enough to believe you and forgive you .

You're unpredictable ;

2010-07-14T21:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRYSTAL MARIKO YAMADA ! ♥ HAHA , that's my beloved sister . Although we do quarrel alot but we love each other always at th end of th day ! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASS ! HAHA!

Well , let's talk about today ! (: Today was fun ~ I was early for school today (Y) Haha , and school went on like usual .. Then had sex talk for assembly . 全场HIGH . LOL , especially those guys ! HA . But we also got learn alot okay . Then went with SIHUIHUI after school to buy koi . Waited for Yicheng they all (USUALS) . And rushed over to his house to do my project . CHIONG LIKE SIAO . HA . Then after i finished , Dangkhoa and Yicheng suddenly sot diao ! They went crazy and started wrestling . Laughed like siao ! HAHA . Then took their unglams and Dangkhoa's 内在美 xD HAHA . Sihui fierce ! Actually wanna post on facebook one , but i think they'll kill us . Haha ! Then i went home to celebrate my sis birthday with family . SABA FTW . Love my mommy's Saba fish \m/ Heehee . Anyways , don't know why recently everyone having extreme moodswings . That includes me :/ Cos there's a lot of crap going on . GAWD . Hope things get better . Till i see you again ! BYE :D

♥ Tell me exactly , what were you thinking ?

Perturb feelings ;

2010-07-11T13:08:00.001+08:00

( Taken at school canteen :D )

HAHA , i've got nothing to blog today :/ So let's blog about yesterday :D Hmm , yesterday , i went to play badminton with Sihui , Dangkhoa , Dianwei , Jin Kai , Eden , Junjie , Jiahao , Yicheng and Yicheng's family :D Had lots and lots of fun ! :D After that , Dangkhoa left . We went over to Botak Jones and had pizza ~ Like delicious only ! (: Then we headed back to Yicheng's house , Jinkai left . Junjie , Dianwei , Yicheng and Eden like childish only ! All add together already 60 years old , still snatch for one toy ball ! WTH . xD They wrestled and stuff . Sihui and i laughed like mad ~ HAHA , then i got real sleepy , wanted to sleep . THEN SOME CHILDISH PERSON KEEP ANNOYING ME ! He should know who he is ! xD Rob me of my sleep , Ass . Well , then not long later , Junjie left . Me and Sihui slept awhile then everyone headed home . I thought there was soccer and waited till morning . In th end , KENA SCAM :/ Another thing that robbed my sleeeeep ! HAHA , that's all yo ! And i'm extremely happy today ! Bye readers ! :D

♥ Make me forget ; all of th pain and all of th sadness .

Endless Rain ;

2010-07-08T00:35:00.002+08:00

Lol , it's 8/7/10 today ~ Nice . HAHA . Well let's talk about what happened just now when it's seventh of July ~ ( This is lame ) Well , we had workshop and assembly today . Funny siah ! Everybody laughed until so happily ! :D After school , we went to celebrate Wua ting's birthday ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN WUA TING ! Had lots of fun . Cakes were smashed into my face -.- And Wil's and Zen's too ! :/ HAHA , th cake is like delicious only ~ Mangoooooo . ( So not funny ) Hahaha . After that went home .. Then met up with Tiantian again to take i/c photos . One word - UNGLAM . Lols , it's seriously damn ugly ! But had fun laughing at it with Tian (: Bobian , must see ears , eyebrows .. LOL . Just look at th photos below ! ( yeah , i heard you laughing ) Just had my bath after reaching home ~
AND TIAN'S GONNA BE LAME , AGAIN ! NEVER GROW UP ! SMALL KID :D
Gonna chiong all my homework , again . Sec three life sucks :/ Actually wanted to watch soccer , but dont think got th time ): Okay nights everybody ! Smile .. Especially you . Well , enjoy our photos ! (:

UNGLAM !

Lols , epic right ! xD But it's cute okay ! (:

♥ I can honestly say ; you've been on my mind since i woke up today ..

CHILDISH ;

2010-07-03T23:52:00.002+08:00

LOL , today actually damn happy one . Then thanks to SOME DOGS , mood like damn suck only ~ Please lahh , you think i even wanna talk to you . DAMN CHILDISH . Come on , i'm not th first one you did this to . I will be th second one that hates you , like your first . CHILDISH YOUNG KID . LOL . So fast so much pictures with other girl siah ! Ehh , nice one . -.- LOL . Somemore today early in th morning got scolded by mom , JUST TO PROTECT SOMEONE . Zzzzs . Then in th end also like that . But thanks to Sihui and Rachel and th rest for making me feel better <: Well , nevertheless , still gonna blog about today der happy things ~ :D TODAY . Got cip , so sian ! Lols , i collect like a damn pathetic amount of oil only . After that , i went with th same group yesterday ~ WOAH , and Wil's sacarsm is damn funny i tell you :D HAHA . Then went to Tian house with them , laughed like crazy ~ then Cheng's house ~ AND BADMINTON , then FOOTBALL FEVER ! I'm with germany ~ They scored three already ! NICE NICE . They confirm win one can . WOOTS ! What a pity i didn't bet ! ): TATA everyone . And you , DOG . If you know who you are :D

♥ I will not feel guilty and do those stupid things for you ever again .